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feeling messed up, HELP ME!

Posted by Mizox - July 2nd, 2009


in my head, it's sometimes like there's 2 people who don't get along, specifically, when it's late and I'm tired

at night, when I'm trying to sleep, my mind seems to split into 2 parts, one part believes in God and the Human soul, the other part isn't so sure, and this second part seems to get a kick out of making me feel disturbed

I try to convince myself logically of the existence of the soul, I tell myself that while the organic circuitry of the brain can do all the things it does, no mere matter can actually be that presence which is within me, which IS me, which senses the world through the medium of my brain

yet this darker part of me refuses to drop the subject, no matter what, I try to tell myself not to worry about it, I have my whole life ahead of me, yet it refuses to listen, I don't know if this is just another part of my mind, or if some invasive spirit decided to screw with me for t3h lulz, I've always been able to view most issues from multiple angles, but I don't know if this is part of it or not

I prayed to God to help me with this, and a little while later the idea popped into my head to tell someone, I don't know if it was Him or me, but I decided to tell others, and now here I am, doing so, also, I fell asleep soon after that, so that's good

I won't deny that my worst, and only major fear, is ceasing to exist

help me! my beliefs might be a bit agnostic but why is all this happening to me!


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"You must accept yourself for who you are. Overcome the obstacles in your way to gain enlightenment on the path ahead." Someone might say, but I am no monk or holy one. I stopped believing, or perhaps more accurately put stopped caring, in God a while ago. It all depends on how you view what a soul truly is though. For we all might see it as something else. If you see a soul as what makes you an individual instead of 'just another face in the crowd' then certainly why would souls not exist? However if you see a soul as something that sets us apart from the rest of the animal kingdom, then is that not our highly-developed brain? As for our individuality, is that not formed through our experiences in life and the genes we inherited through our parents? I don't know the answers to these questions, so if you truly care you should seek them out.

Please enjoy the remainder of your twenty-four hour span of time.

the soul does not set us apart from other animals, all organisms with consciousness possess one

24 hours? oh crap

"Faith without question is idolatry. There's a difference between kneeling down and bending over." - Frank Zappa

Just remember that. Religion is just mindless drivel unless you question it. That's how it works. There's nothing wrong with you.

yeah, I got therapy from an E-friend, I feel better now :)

The only voice I hear when I go to sleep tells me to kill all my friends and reinstate the Nazi Regime. So, ya, Kindred Spirits.

forget the Nazis, lets do it for the Marcab Confederacy!

All hail Xenu!

the 4th (or 5th, whatever) invasion fleet want's YOU!