in my head, it's sometimes like there's 2 people who don't get along, specifically, when it's late and I'm tired
at night, when I'm trying to sleep, my mind seems to split into 2 parts, one part believes in God and the Human soul, the other part isn't so sure, and this second part seems to get a kick out of making me feel disturbed
I try to convince myself logically of the existence of the soul, I tell myself that while the organic circuitry of the brain can do all the things it does, no mere matter can actually be that presence which is within me, which IS me, which senses the world through the medium of my brain
yet this darker part of me refuses to drop the subject, no matter what, I try to tell myself not to worry about it, I have my whole life ahead of me, yet it refuses to listen, I don't know if this is just another part of my mind, or if some invasive spirit decided to screw with me for t3h lulz, I've always been able to view most issues from multiple angles, but I don't know if this is part of it or not
I prayed to God to help me with this, and a little while later the idea popped into my head to tell someone, I don't know if it was Him or me, but I decided to tell others, and now here I am, doing so, also, I fell asleep soon after that, so that's good
I won't deny that my worst, and only major fear, is ceasing to exist
help me! my beliefs might be a bit agnostic but why is all this happening to me!